I wrote this on the train last October. Clearly this is long overdue for publishing….I don’t really do feelings, well to be clear I don’t really do “heavy” feelings. At this point in my life any emotion that requires too much thought and brings unnecessary complication… she’s not here for that. Most people find that I’m hard to read because I’m not overly explicit with emotions, my reactions however  is an entirely different feeling. This  list has some of THE WORST (maybe I’m being a bit dramatic), MOST PAINFULLY ANNOYING feelings ever that will illicit some of my strongest reactions

1. Running for a bus/train and missing it by .01 seconds. How do you play it off like you were not running ? You can’t! You just have to stand there and admit defeat

 

2. Stubbing your pinky toe

 

3. Hitting your elbow and feeling that painstaking shock run through your entire body

 

 

4. Losing to a ‘newbie’ in a game where you’re crowned King/Queen then they get all in your face doing a victory dance (like King Bey below) and you really just wanna give them a bxtch sit down but you can’t cause you’re gonna look like a sore loser…thankfully nobody ever defeated me in Connect 4

 

5. Thinking about left over food allllll day/ on your commute home to find out your roommate/family/somebody ate YOUR food without even asking for your consent. The motherfucking audacity, the gall!  That right there is the ultimate disrespect, that’s grounds for a severe verbal lashing, grounds to even make you shed a tear cause that fucker took your food that you had your heart set on SMFH

 


6.Being turned away from the bar /establishment when it’s over capacity (read: when cops  are standing at the front door threatening to shut it down if the bouncer doesn’t remove people from inside or stop admitting ppl)

 

7.Feeling stagnant in your life/career. Nuff said.

 

8.Getting sick on vacation and having to  stay in bed while you watch everyone get drunk and indulge in other sinful vacay activities

 

9.Having to go out of your way to acknowledge / feign politeness to someone you don’t give two fucks about for the sake of maintaining a professional relationship. It’s all part of the “game.” Corporate America, why you so cruel.

 

 

10. Keeping your inner thug/ G/ratch etc.at bay when you’re in a professional setting. It could be a song that comes on that make you want to get out of character (like when Bandz come on at a work party) or it could be a shady email that makes you want to read a bitch his/her  last rites…but you can’t.

 

11. When you get into a heated discussion  you  say some “things” and the other person is now expecting an apology. You feel bad because you meant everything you said in the heat of the moment but it also sucks to see someone ‘hurt’ …but at the end of the day  you can’t apologize for how you truly feel so you say…

 

 

That’s my list ..what are some of  feelings you can live without?